Schrodinger's Baby

I know I just slipped this in a couple of posts ago, so I thought I'd do an official post now -

Yes, I am pregnant.

The baby is due in May, around John's graduation day. This timing will tell you that it is not as planned a pregnancy as it could be. But we are very excited - mostly. I love kids and want more, but with the miscarriage still fresh in my head and the morning sickness still churning in my stomach, it is hard to work up the proper enthusiasm.

I'm trying to focus on the good. I believe every new life is cause for celebration, and any more of John's DNA out in the world is a good thing (he is so good-looking, his children just make the world a more beautiful place.) But I still occasionally wake up in the middle of the night wondering if the nudge I just felt was the baby kicking or a cramp as my body gets rid of another dead fetus.

Until we know for sure, I'm trying to just work from the assumption that everything is fine. And so far all my doctor's appointments have been normal. But we've taken to calling it "Schrodinger's Baby."

Google "Schrodinger's cat" if you don't get it.

And I've decided to name it Karegan Deal. After the Grandmothers (Karen and Megan) and the Grandfathers (David and Neal). The best part is that it is a bisexual name - so it doesn't matter if it is a boy or a girl. - - - - OK, that is really only funny if you have read both "Breaking Dawn" and Sarah and AJ's Christmas card last year. Just chalk it up to an inside joke and ignore it.