So I have been a little annoyed with my doctor. The last time I talked to him I told him that I'd had a headache every day since the miscarriage and though I know grieving is normal, I feel like I'm not handling it very well. He was sympathetic, gave me a prescription for the headaches and another for the panic attacks; then he reassured me that letting some time pass, getting out more in the nice weather and getting pregnant again would all make me feel better.
Excuse me? A pregnancy is not a goldfish. You can't just get me a new one and think that it will make me feel better. I realize why, as a doctor, he would want to reassure me that I should and could get pregnant again, and I also realize that I'm a little over emotional about the whole issue, But still, I thought it was a little tactless.
And then my cousin gave us a couple of tadpoles. I have been hoping we could get our hands on some this spring, because I thought the boys would get a kick out of watching them grow up. Their names are Dick and Dish (don't ask). So now we have a great science experiment right on our kitchen counter, and strangely enough (even though they are tadpoles and not goldfish, like I felt the doctor was implying) it does make me feel a little better.
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It has been over 3 years since my 2 miscarriages and I still think about it and it still hurts! I do have adorable Gage to fill that void but I still think, "Wow, I could have had 4 children!" (Well, I do and 2 of the little angels are in heaven) The baby was a part of you and it hurts to go through a miscarriage. No one can truly relate unless they have experienced a loss themselves. I hope these words comfort you some, dear!
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